I hate watching a movie and seeing a pregnant woman's belly being treated like a crystal ball and thinking , "Gosh. I want to rub my belly like that again." It's such a double edged sword! When you're dating all you can think about is "Would I be ready?!" and when you're in your early 20's and thinking about finding more of a Mr. Right than a Mr. Right Now to settle down and have that first serious relationship with you think , "Would he be a good father?" Fortunately it didn't take me long to week the Woulds from the Would Nots. When I was ready to make the leap from dater to doer I got lucky and found him on the first try. What really drew me to my husband was the first time we went anywhere aside from just casually yaking each others ears off at a house party, I was driving us and a couple of friends to eat. On our way back we were talking about our past relationships, and what not and as I was driving and he in the back seat the question of kids was brought up. I knew he was my guy when he said, "I could have kids right now. I'm that ready!" and true to his word, some few months later he ran into the room and almost did summersaults when he found out the test was positive. I guess the guy that I thought was sexy in a white t-shirt was even sexier holding my belly and feeling him kick and learning all he could at every Dr's visit. I guess if it wasn't for the whole delievery part, I'd probably be pregnant right now! Although this time, more wiser, more in control, more knowing when to tell the Dr to shut up and leave my epidural alone. Talking to a girl in my MOMS Club I realized who has an 18 month and isn't on any type of BC, I realize that maybe it would be okay to tempt fate a little bit, possibly see what happens if we really weren't planning but we really did get pregnant (and then I realize.. HEY! We really weren't trying the first time!) and is it anything you really can plan the right exact moment for. I mean seriously, I'm a big fan that you're never financially or emotionally ready for ANY baby. But could we really make the jump from a family of 3 to a family of 4? Would that be possible? Who knows. |
