| First Post of the New Year because I'm a Slacker. |
Things have been hectic around here like you would not believe. It's like if anything could possibly go askew, it has or is about to. I can just feel things that are still on the cusp of sliding downwards.
I think I need my thyroid tested. It's not the I'm a hypocondriac because if there is anything in this world that I hate worse than balloons, it's needles and medical things that are sharp and can poke me of any kind. I've been reading all these articles about how most women, especially after birth, don't realize that they aren't just fatigued from having a child and that adjustment, but also because they may have a thyroid condition that needs adjusting. On top of that I'm scheduled for my asthma follow up on Tuesday and this will determine if I need allergy tests, an EKG, and what medications I'll be on for the rest of my life. Whooptie doo. It's not that I don't want to be healthy, it's that a person has plans for their life and scheduling medications every day when you're only 25 is a bit of a nerve thing even when you think of all the advancements even in the past year in this disease, but to think that for the rest of your life you have to take a pill or an inhaler just to function normally and not to mention the effect it has on any plans for more children and other things people take for granted.
It's funny how they tell you that you will probably be high risk, if it is recommended that you get pregnant again at all that puts you into full "I WANT A BABY!" mode. It's on your mind during sex, it's now a constant on my t.v. that at 2 p.m. A Baby Story comes on automatically, and it's almost as if your mind goes into a grieving process for a baby you still could have. Names for babies you want to have circle your head and you just want to shut them out or you think of the name you gave your child and you think, "Wow. If I had known that this would be the only baby I named, I would've given him 6 middle names and not just 2." And then you start thinking crazy things like, "If I could just have one more... let it be a girl." and then you change your mind becuase you have such a good boys name you really want to use, only to change it again because your husband doesn't like your names and then change it again because it doesn't really matter if it's a boy or girl only that it's healthy and you are able to have it.
Then you start thinking of everything else that comes with thinking of a new baby. Is it the right time? When is the right time? You're never ready for a baby! What about your marriage and face it, that's a sticky unsteady subject to begin with. It's just really unsettling to think and plan and have all these things going on and it's only January so you can't imagine what the new year is going to bring when only the first few weeks are stressfilled. |
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Alias: SNM
Hometown: Farmington, WV, United States
About Me: SMN is currently a S@HM who resides in the Senior Citizen capital of the world. Amongst her many talents are writing, tiptoeing through the mind field that is her living room, saving run away strollers, lacing any comment with sarcasm, and changing a diaper in 10 seconds flat. Her greatest achievements are birthing Thing One and Thing Two. Ongoing projects include diving into the world of blogging, weaning an aggressive breast feeder, parenting and all it's challenges, and being a wife she can live with (as well as her husband).
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